Thanksgiving 2008
Kelly Deppen
Bridges Revelatory Ministry

So busy this know the drill.  Trying to get things wrapped up on some ministry projects...and pies...many, many pies.

I don't like this whirl of activity.  I much prefer quiet, intimate time looking at Jesus and talking with Him.  Though I love to bake, I totally prefer being in the Presence to being in the kitchen.  One of my personal goals is to become as focused in the kitchen as was Brother Lawrence.  From this keyboard to God's ears!  One thing I desire, and I am seeking out: to always be in His Presence and to behold Him with an unbroken gaze.  That's the thing.  (Psalm 27:4)

Yesterday I was straining to see and hear the Lord through the flurry of earth-stuff, and frankly I was becoming frustrated.  If I have an arch nemesis, it is called frustration.  Frustration is anger at a situation or set of circumstances.  This should have been my first clue to move!  To draw closer to my Beloved.

During this period of frustration, I got the idea that chocolate was the answer!  (Do you know a confession when you read one?)  I went to the candy stash and the only chocolate in the house was some new, organic 70% bittersweet chocolate disks.  OK.  That'll do in a panic.  I unwrapped one and let it begin to dissolve in my mouth.

WOW!  My entire face squinched up from the intense bittersweet-ness of the chocolate.  Though I have never met a piece of chocolate that I didn't like...I was considering this as perhaps the first.  I said, "Whoa, Lord, I don't think that I am woman enough for this!"

And then I saw Jesus...

He had a quizzical expression, as if He was enjoying me not enjoying the chocolate.  Was that a smirk, Lord?

However, in that moment, the bittersweet chocolate began to reveal its sweeter nature.  I was beginning to enjoy, and I realized that this was one powerful taste sensation that I was having.  There was now an incredible fullness to the experience.  It was like chocolate to the tenth power, and just this one little ounce of it was entirely satisfying.  Rich.  Luxurious. Elegant.

And the Lord said to me, "Kelly, tell Me what you are most Thankful for this year."

And, I understood, and the tears began, and my heart was so full, filled to fullness, with the Bittersweet experience of my blessed life over this past year!

This is how I answered the Lord:

I am so incredibly Thankful that You healed my long-broken relationship with my birth mother!  HOW AWESOME YOU ARE, JESUS!  You gave me the Gift of Resurrected Love and Relationship, and when she passed away in June You blessed me with the opportunity to perform her funeral services!  My heart is so FULL, Lord!

Lord, I am humbly Thankful that just as we were confirming plans to go to Tanzania, You said, "No.  Not now."  I thank You for Your NO, not asking WHY, just resting in the assurance that Your NO means LOVE in the same measure as Your YES.  Thanks for WISDOM.  Thanks for LOVING US.  Thanks for an opportunity to obey.  Thank You.  I love that my human mind is empty of Your reason!  I give that back to you as an offering.  My heart is full.

Lord, I Thank and Praise You that people observe me in various states of MS--- but in all of them YOU are SO PRESENT.  In Remission You are Health and Healing, in Relapse You Are The Same!  Thank You, Jesus that my Love and Relationship are with YOU, and not with a disease process.  Thanks, too for Your Grace to forgive those who judge illness as a moral or spiritual failure.  THANK YOU, Jesus for the Grace to Enjoy and the Grace to Endure!

Jesus, You died and rose again to give me LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY.  I get it----it works! 

Beloved friends, ALL that we have to be Thankful for, and Everything that we have to be Thankful for is JESUS.
He is LOVE.
He is All in All.
In Him we live and move and have our being.  (Acts 17:28)
In Him and by Him ALL THINGS CONSIST.         (Colossians 1:17)
All of the Riches of Glory are ours in Him.          (Philippians 4:19)

Perhaps Forrest Gump said it best:

"Life is like a box of chocolates."

And, have filled my mouth and life with good things!

"Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's."  Psalm 103:5

In all the life that I have tasted, I am able to testify..Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! 

"O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him."   Psalm 34:8

 This continues to my experience:  Jesus.  Rich. Luxurious.  Elegant.

Happy Thanksgiving to all,

Kelly Deppen